A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together

It doesn't matter how many times I was told that, only people who understand how poor their knowledge is can be develop true wisdom, it doesn't help.
As closer it comes to exams as stronger I feel my misery. First month of studying here I felt how knowledge come and fill in my brain. At the moment i feel like my brain messed and stocked. I don't feel being intellegent anymore. I feel being stupid. Never in my life i was studying that much for some long period of time (4 month for now) but I feel like I'm still a bit behind...

Politics and Policy

Я давно стала задумываться о взаимосвязи языка и менталитета определенной нации. Так например, русский язык просто славиться своей насыщенностью оборотов относительно процесса принятия алкоголя, способа обмануть, а какое чудесное слово "халтурить". Нет, тут же соглашусь, что есть огромное количество хороших, добрых слов. Но я не об этом.
Как сказал один из моих профессоров: мы не можем изучать какое-либо явление пока не дали ему точного определения. А иначе и быть не может, а иначе нет никакой научной дискуссии, так как предмет разговора не определен. 
Разница в языке часто отображает разницу в менталитете и наоборот. Я заметила, что мне куда сложнее разобраться в понятиях, которые не имеют четко  выраженного аналога в русском языке и такие накладки получаются регулярно.
Готовясь к очередному экзамену, я в который раз натолкнулась на мой самый любимый и часто встречающийся пример. Я уже шишку себе набила, но продолжаю спотыкаться об эти определения.
Ввожу в поисковике определения слов политика на русском и английском языке.


Толковый Словарь Ожегова
Политика - Вопросы и события общественной, государственной жизни

Политика - Деятельность общественных классов, партий и других классовых организаций, общественных группировок, определяемая их интересами и целями

Политика - Деятельность органов государственной власти и государственного управления, отражающая общественный строй и экономическую структуры страны

Политика - Образ действий, направленных на достижение чего-нибудь, определяющих отношения с людьми


thefreedictionary.com

Politics -The art or science of government or governing, especially the governing of a political entity, such as a nation, and the administration and control of its internal and external affairs.
Policy A plan or course of action, as of a government, political party, or business, intended to influence and determine decisions, actions, and other matters

Как я не старалась отсеивая всякие значения, типа "образ действий, часто подразумевающий обмануть", но найти значение отражающее английское слово Policy я так и не смогла.


Самое близкое "образ действий". Ау, а где же план, направление для принятия решений. Все чаще натыкаясь на всякие Political issues моя голова продуцирует образы лоббирования личных интересов методами государственного управления. И никаких вам продуманных действий для развития общества. Мой язык не знает такого слова.

Motivation list

1. If you fall asleep now, you will dream. If you study now, you will live your dream.
2. When you think it's too late, the truth is, it's still early. 
3. The pain of studying is only temporary. But the pain of not knowing--ignorance--is forever. 
4. Studying is not about time. It's about effort. 
5. Life is not all about studying. But if you can't even conquer this little part of life, then what else can you possibly do? 
6. Enjoy the inexorable pain. 
7. It's those who are earlier than the others, those who put in more effort, who can enjoy the feelings of success. 
8. Not everyone can truely succeed in everything. But success only comes with self-management and determination. 
9. Time is flying. 
10. The saliva that flow now will become the tears of tomorrow. 
11. Dogs are learning, ambassadors are playing. 
12. If you don't walk today, you'll have to run tomorrow. 
13. People who invest in the future are realists. 
14. The level of education is in direct correlation with your salary. 
15. When today is over, it will never come back. 
16. Even now, your enemies are eagerly flipping through books. 
17. No pain, no gain.


Thank you Alina Tokmylenko!!!

Forgive me for stating the obvious, but the world is made up of all kinds of people. Other people have their own values to live by, and the same holds true with me. These differences give rise to disagreements, and the combitination of these disagreements can give rise to even greater misunderstandings. As a result, sometimes people are unfairly critisized. This goes without saying. It's not much fun to be misunderstood or criticized, but rather a painful experience that hurts people deeply.

©Haruki Murakami

'What I talk about when I talk about running'

like a novel...

I have two friends of mine. Both has got the same name and both are great, as for me. So, let them call mr. A and mr. B.
They are know each other and think good about each other. But I feel quite different abot them.
Mr. A is smart, uniqe and special. If you ask me: Do you know someone special? I would surely answer "Yes!"/
I feel great about him. The whole my body starts shaking when he is around. I laugh, talk and feel great.
At least it was like this.
Because now it hurts. I am not too naive to believe "he is not ready" or "has difficult period". I'm sure he is just not that much into me. Otherwise he would be with me.
I know he likes me, he wants me and blah-blah-blah. But he is just not much into me. And it hurts.
We are pulling each other leg every single day. My brain is almost cold and clear but I'm head over heels in love.
Mr. B is completely different. He is much more organized and neat. He is clever but I wouldn't say he is unique. Moreover, he is typically nice.
I don't have my hands shaking and don't loose my breath when he is close, but I feel great, I feel amazing and comfortable. I feel like I'm the most interesting woman in the world. He listens to me, he cares about me. And it's just so natural that I feel great.
Mr. A is single and mr. B is in relationship. And if I know that feeling I have to mr. B is called "friendship" than what do I feel to mr. A?

...to be continued=)

The importance of "importance"

I always was wondering should I take all opportunities on my way or select only the best ones. And if second what is the best.

Then I've got to the point when I compared my life with a basket and opportunities with mushrooms.




 If you would take all mushrooms on your way there simply would not be any space in your basket when you found something which really worth.  Nevetherless you could come home with almost empty basket if you skip less important ones on your way.

Going through my life I made my list of important things shorter and shorter but gave them bigger value. At some point I was just tired of everything and I closed myself to opportunities. I needed time to come up with new understanding of importance.

And I did.

I have listed the all valueable things and found who I am at 30, 25, 22.
I was ready to go, but have nothing to do.Because of this period of solitary I didn't fill my schedule enought. Thus I decide to apply myself wherever I can taking in consideration my list.
I was pending for few months. Waiting time...
But now I feel happy, I feel satisfied. Of cause I have to work more and more. But I can (and have to) reject some opportunities because I have more places want me than I do want them.
Conclusion: values matter. It's not that much important how much it would take to come up with your importance list. But you surely need to do it!

The look

As far as I remember myself I’ve always found it difficult watching people’s eyes. Then I remember a moment when it changed. I had personal development training and I discovered how inherent smile and look could be. I tried to be as much open and cheerful as can even thought it was still difficult to me.

Today walking along the park and meeting different people (I can’t tell actually how much I wanted to meet nobody) I understood that I’m avoiding people again. I always drop my eyes when they’re just supposed to meet others. Thus what the problem with me?

May be it because of that guy from my work in India who considered my friendly look as flirting. Then I got to know that in India girls use tender look to show they like guy as it not commonplace to say it. So it’s obvious that glance could be imprecise in different cultures or even situations. For example watching people in Emirates and in USA is absolute different things. As well as dropping your eyes could be considered ambiguously both modesty and guilt when you talk to people.

Anyway I should challenge myself looking at people’s eyes and who knows may be one day I would really enjoy it.

Being always a quite sociable person I finally got the point that I need to be more solitary from time to time. Thus I’ve decided to simulate the moments I can be alone.
Today staying under the shower stream I got the new feeling. Feeling of not caring in the most positive meaning of this word I know. And then I understood why. My life became purposeful and I’m doing my best to not suck in this purpose.

Battle of 2 L: Love vs Language

Walking home tonight I suddenly remembered a conversation I had almost year ago with one cute Brazilian guy. The topic was “Could you marry somebody who has another nationality” as it usually means another language, culture, religion. I’m not taking about Russian-Ukrainian-Belarusian marriages. Even though it could be same problem with marriage insight the country as we have Orthodoxies, Catholics, Greek-Catholics, Muslims and more, and more.

But the question is could people who have different native languages communicate intimately.  I’m not talking about all this “bed-stuff”. I mean could you learn another language good enough to explain you’re the most personal things? Or could you both put the same meaning in these words?

But could you do it in your mother tongue? I came with a memory of my ex-ex-ex boyfriend who has sad “I love you” after our very first kiss. And this was the moment I understood I put another meaning to this words. We split up less than a month after and I know there was nothing about love.

So can I be sure people I’m talking too feel and understand the same what I mean?  And could person who doesn’t know any single Russian word understand what “love”, “pain”, “friend”, “loneness” mean too me?